I was a widow once. When I say once, I mean that’s how many times it’s happened. I was the girl and then young woman who grew up always wanting to find her husband. Her tried and true. Her one and only. He would be the one thing in my life that never changed, that … Continue reading I Was A Widow Once.
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With 74 days left in 2023, where has the time gone?
I thought I'd drop by and say hello, but I must admit in doing so that I am surprised to find my last entry was posted nearly a month ago which begs the question yet again, Where does the time go? I have an app on my phone that up until Josiah was killed, kept … Continue reading With 74 days left in 2023, where has the time gone?
The Tangled Lives We Live
An essay exploring the undeniable parallels of art, life and grieving.
Jurisdiction… Confused? You aren’t alone.
Ambiguous: adj.1) doubtful or uncertain especially from obscurity or indistinctness 2) not expressed or understood clearly Jurisdiction on the Yakama Reservation is a messy topic with no definitive answers. It continues to confuse and surprise me over four years after Josiah was killed while passing through on Hwy 97, a state owned and maintained roadway. I … Continue reading Jurisdiction… Confused? You aren’t alone.
What’s Heaven Like, Momma?
Momma and I. 1979-ish. It’s your birthday today, the second one since you left. The missing you has become mostly seamless, no more hard rise and fall, just a current that flows beneath me as time carries on. I swore I heard your voice the other night, speaking from somewhere in the back of my … Continue reading What’s Heaven Like, Momma?
Writing My Truthiest Truth
Writing My Truthiest Truth - and the digging that has to be done to get there.
Days Between
My experience with grief has been a roller coaster, as I know it is for many. When I look at the bell curve of it all, I can see the progress, the normalcy coming back into my life. The hanging frown that I could not seem to lift has faded and a smile often stretches … Continue reading Days Between
Listen: Closer, the Podcast Episode 6: On Water with Liz Hilderbrand
Find the episode here: Closer, the podcast. Episode 6: On Water with Liz Hilderbrand 11 years ago, 7 before Josiah was taken from this earth, my life fell apart. The writing had been on the wall for some time, but I just couldn't see it. And then, BOOM! Everything came crashing down. I was so … Continue reading Listen: Closer, the Podcast Episode 6: On Water with Liz Hilderbrand
What to do. What to do. The anxiety is speaking loudly today. How are things going for you?
Man. This new phase of my life is both a breath of fresh air and challenging. There is so much to do, to write about to acknowledge, so many that I want to thank. So many feelings that I want to explore within myself and with all of you that I sometimes get stuck on … Continue reading What to do. What to do. The anxiety is speaking loudly today. How are things going for you?
Hope
I have been back from my trip for just eight days now--what a journey it was, both internal and external, through the farthest reaches of the Northwest and of my Heart! 2400 miles were driven in three states through a path both familiar and new that wound its way in a figure eight from here … Continue reading Hope
Remember the Birds 