August 21, 2015 - Musings on love lost and waiting for love to be found. I went for a walk in the woods today and found myself sewing together pieces of my puzzle. Tidbits of understandings, mini-epiphanies, heartfelt chunks of midlife wisdom. I understand that the Universe has thrown lesson after lesson at my feet. … Continue reading Just As It Should
Author: Remember the Birds
Sometimes Silence is Overrated
Originally written November 23, 2021 Early morning pitch black conversation: “I miss him so much.” “I know baby. I can only imagine.” I miss the noise his presence brought to my life. The chaos of his unconventional living. The "Mom’s?" that seemed to crescendo at the end with an inflection that proved he still needed … Continue reading Sometimes Silence is Overrated
When I Keep My Grieving Small
Originally written February 25, 2020 I seem to do okay when I keep my grieving small. I do not mean minimized or sidelined or not thought about. I mean when I keep my feelings to bite sized chunks with words like, “I miss him." “I miss his laugh." “I wish I could see him today." … Continue reading When I Keep My Grieving Small
My Heart Hurts Today
Originally written July 30, 2019 My heart hurts today. More than yesterday or the day before. I seem to slip in and out of the depths of my grief. I can only assume that is what the psyche does to preserve itself. To keep our hearts beating and lungs inhaling and exhaling. To keep us … Continue reading My Heart Hurts Today
No Point to Return to
Originally written July 26, 2020 I’ve really been struggling this past week. At the same time, I could tell you that it has been a good week. One that in many ways feels like the life I used to live. It is summertime and summer is so insanely demanding when I live it right. Working … Continue reading No Point to Return to
Welcome to the little blog that could…
Hello, everyone. Thanks so much for stopping by. This blog started years ago as an effort to reach out from behind the Redwood Curtain, a place that stole my heart 30 years ago. Now, it serves as a place to share my life after death. I am a bereaved mother who lost her one and … Continue reading Welcome to the little blog that could…
Preface ~ From the Top.
Preface/Chapter 1 ~ From the Top Josiah Michael Hilderbrand was born on a snowy February morning in 1994. At the time, we were living in an off grid trailer in the mountains east of Arcata, California. There was a lot left to be desired about the trailer, but considering where we had come from, I … Continue reading Preface ~ From the Top.
She’s Back
She's Back My goodness... It's been five years since I abandoned this blog to the farthest corners of my doubtful mind. It's easy to tuck dreams and ideas away when you just aren't feeling good enough to achieve them. I started this blog at the urging of my sister, Kathryn. She thought that between the … Continue reading She’s Back
What a day.
What a day.I headed north, had lunch with a very dear friend and took Dharma to the vet where they did blood tests to see how she was doing, laid out a care plan for the next few months and trained me to give her her monthly injections. When it came time to pay, they … Continue reading What a day.
Gluten Free Granola – just the way you like it
I have been making granola for years. There are many reasons why I make so much of my own food. Of course, it's satisfying, but I can also control ingredients to appease my food allergies and in the end, it winds up being much more affordable than prepackaged food. Therefore, I can afford to eat … Continue reading Gluten Free Granola – just the way you like it
Remember the Birds 